Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Oops…okay then. I didn’t see that coming, but it was wonderful. I expected – no – anticipated, more like hoped for it, but I didn’t think it would happen quite…so soon. It was the most natural thing, and I loved it. But at the same time there’s a question lurking in the back of my mind, an uncertainty, a little voice of doubt screaming at me in protest. Most of me is walking on clouds, laughing at the midget trying to pull everything back down to earth – or into the abyss? Before, I wasn’t sure if I really felt quite that way, until it happened. It was then that my heart physically, literally told me everything. It’s not often that I feel it throbbing in my chest, beating in my fingers – or was it yours I felt?
Like a time bomb the days tick by: 4 months till I go oh so far away. It’s crossed my mind to change that, to get out, but no, I can’t. I can’t. You think about the inevitable fact far too much, but I try not to think about it. Don’t get me wrong, it’s always there, lurking in the depths of my mind, but I’m focused on the interim months, all the time we have, all the things we can do. …and the times between, when I’ll be back: Christmas break for sure, summer…what am I doing?
I’m sorry, dear – that it happened now, that I’m going away soon. Were it my choice, I wouldn’t have it quite this way. But it’s not completely my choice, and I’m sure whatever happens will be the best – that it will turn out perfectly, whatever that looks like, as it always does.
I don’t mind in the least, but…why did you choose me?